Something seems out with the balance of the universe these last couple of days. I can't quite figure out what it is. There seems to be a void in this world that is way larger than the physical man himself.
So many mixed emotions; Toby is free of the pain, I'm glad; I miss the constant barrage of my PM inbox, I'm not so happy. His looming death gave him little fear, he was ready, he was strong, though surprised at the helpless feeling it was giving him near the end. Although we all knew the day was coming, and I've been through it before with my very close little cousin, it is not easy for those of us left behind.
A little of him will live on in each of us and will never leave. It will modify us and we will pass it on in inperceptible ways to those we influence. We will know it as life continues and little moments and things happen. We will pause with a wry smile and nod of the head as the voice in our head says, 'Yeah, Toby!"
Rest in peace my good friend. You got under a lot of peoples skin. Your job is done, it is up to us to carry that on.
Oh, and by the way mate, .... the 6.5mm is 0.5mm too fat!

